Sometimes its hard to reach inside and yank out those feelings that gnaw at you. but i think its good to get them out, even if it is painful. I think many parents can relate to my thoughts for today. My oldest daughter id getting married next month. I am so happy for her. But at the same time, I hurt inside knowing she will belong to someone else, and her interests will change; and her family, the one she has known for 23 years will change. But, after all, that is what her mother and I raised her for: to be equipped to live life - to its fullest. Then why do I feel sad. Well that is a deep question. All I can say is I have mixed emotions. I am sad mostly because life is moving too quickly for me. I wanted more time with my kids. I love having them here at home. One part of me never wants to let go, and the other knows this is just part of life.
I have told my kids all along that we should embrace life! Learn to enjoy the things we are privileged to do and have. The very simple things like shaving, brushing your teeth, driving your car, loving your pet... these are all things I know we will ALL look back on and wish we could do more or, not matter how much we think it is a drag today.
There is so much I would love to write about today. But I think the most prevalent thing on my heart is the one part of life that is bitter sweet - letting go. I have to let go of my daughter, yes, but I also have to let go of the years of investment, the part of my life that I have loved and enjoyed. I just hope I can continue to enjoy the fellowship of my oldest daughter as she builds her life and hopefully carries on the the family tradition of embracing and enjoying all that life has to offer.
